January 8, 2018



Monday!  We have been here for almost two weeks.  Two weeks for sweet Sarah to be confined to her hospital room, but she has been handling it SO well!  It's hard, but it seems like nothing when you see other kids who are confined to their room for 100 days after bone marrow transplant.

I stayed here with Sarah for the first 8 days, but I went home on Friday to spend some time with Hannah and Camden.  I really wanted to see them, but it broke my heart to leave Sarah.

It was a nice weekend home.  I loved playing cars with Camden, and talking with Hannah about school and mermaids, and cuddling on the couch watching some of their favorite shows.  On Saturday night I called Nathan to check on Sarah.  I starting crying to him as I now thought of leaving my other two angels.  Hannah said, "Why are you crying?"  I really didn't want them to know I was crying.  I don't want to make it harder on them, so I try really hard to just be tough and brave like they are.  I told her I was sad that I had to leave them soon.  She said, "I know what you mean, I have that yucky feeling too.  But we are going to be ok mom."  Camden then chimed in, "Yeah...me miss you a little, but not too bad."  It amazed me!  Just months ago all my kids were really clingy, and didn't like me to be far away, but now they are the ones comforting me. It is truly a tender mercy from Heavenly Father.  I never would have asked for this trial, but my testimony has never been stronger.  I know we have never been alone.  We have seen many miracles...we see the hand of God in our lives each day.  

"We were not placed on this earth to walk alone...He will be there for us to provide help if we but ask.  We have the promise: 'Pray always, and be believing, and all things shall work together for your good....I promise you that you will one day stand aside and look at your difficult times, and you will realize that He was always there beside you."   President Thomas S. Monson

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