January 29, 2018

Sarah started another round of chemo today.  Camden and Daddy brought us to the hospital.  I thought having Camden here would help Sarah adjust to being back.  They were cute little friends-playing Xbox, coloring on the window, playing cars-It was great…until it was time for Camden and Daddy to go home.  He was pretty heartbroken we weren’t coming back home with them. Nathan took him to see his work and bought him a new hot wheel car on the way home, so he was good.




 The chemos Sarah gets this round are the same as last time.  We are back to three sponge baths a day to prevent skin burns from one chemo. She screams and fights, we hold her down so she doesn’t pull the line out of her chest….it’s extremely vulnerable!  As diligent as we’ve been to keep her skin clean, she has a tan and dark spots where her skin was extra sensitive.

Overall Sarah is doing really well!  It was so nice to have a two week break at home (with the exception of a one night sleepover at the hospital for croup).   Her sleeping schedule is all over the place.  Sometimes she stays up until 3:00 or 5:00 a.m.  Other nights she falls asleep about 9:00 and is up and ready to play by 3:00.  It’s something many of the patients here go through.  Thank goodness for Diet Coke!!



I've been thinking a lot these past few weeks...
I don't know why Sarah has cancer.  I don't know why she has to go through so much, or why other children suffer. I don't know why some people are healed and others aren't. I don't know if Sarah will get better...I really believe she will, but I don't KNOW how this will all turn out. I don't know a lot of things, but they don't really matter because of what I do know.... I know God lives, and I know He loves us.  I know He will never leave us alone, and I know this life isn't the end.  

 "Sometimes we can learn, and study, and know, and sometimes we have to believe, trust, and hope." -M. Russell Ballard

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  1. CarenJanuary 30, 2018 at 12:49 PM

    Thanks for your example of believing, trusting, and hoping. Love you!

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