October 12, 2017

October 12, 2017

My sweet mom came to the hospital last night to be with Sarah while I went to be a mom to my other little angels.  I loved being home with Nathan, Hannah, and Camden.  We are so anxious to all be home together.

Just after Hannah turned three her appendix ruptured and she had stay in the hospital for a few days. Camden was still nursing and needed me, so he and I were home during the night while Nathan stayed at the hospital, then during the day Nathan and I would trade places. It was so hard being separated for only a few days and I promised myself to never take just being together as a family for granted....but time passed and I got so used to always being together that I took it for granted.  I look back at that and wish we only had to be separated for a few days instead of a few weeks.

I was able to help in Hannah's class today.  I promised her I would be there as soon as I got Camden to preschool.  I walked in about 9:45 and she hurried to me with tears streaming down her cheeks.  I took her into the coat closet and just held her while she cried.

When I finished helping I told her I would be back at lunch and take her out for a fun afternoon.  She got so worried and asked me not to leave without her, so I just waited in the hall for an hour or so until lunch time.  We were able to go on a fun  date with Camden and Daddy.

Thankfully, Camden seems to be doing really well.  He loves being Grandpa's little sidekick.

It breaks my heart every time I leave Sarah at the hospital, and it breaks again when I leave Hannah and Camden at home.  Hannah and I just hug each other and cry when we know we're about to be apart again.  I told her I asked Heavenly Father to send some of His best angels to take care of them while I'm away, and I know He does.  They have angels in our parents, siblings, friends, and neighbors. They have angels in heaven too...every day that passes I realize that Heaven really isn't so far away.  We get strength to do things we couldn't do on our own.

"I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you."  John 14:18

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